Tathra's Farewell 15.11.05 - 60KB

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Jedi_Knight_Tathra organises a lift down to the gungun citywere sage lives ... and knocks on his door she is dressedsimplilly ... but the look on her face is one of stress

Jedi_Master_Sage presses the entry button and the door

slides open "Yes Tathra? what are you doing here?" Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master I must talk to you for you arethe only one currently I trust.

Jedi_Master_Sage keeps his arms folded, hiding the factthat he holds his unlit saber in one hand "I must ask youto lay your weapon down, slowly"

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it is secured in my leg Jedi_Master_Sage : I know, please do as I say. Jedi_Knight_Tathra she crouches down opening it slowly ..

she takes out both the knife and her saber putting them

both on the ground before her then she takes a couble ofsteps back .. after closing the panel

Jedi_Knight_Tathra from her belt she unclips the stun whipand tosses it with the other weapons

Jedi_Master_Sage : And your arm, the light dagger. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : oh I forgot I had that.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra opens her arm up and takes out the

weapon she has not even tried to use yet putting it tothe pile...

Jedi_Master_Sage raises an eyebrow blandly as he floatsthe weapons from the floor into a metal crate that helocks telekinetically "I'm going to give you a chance totell me the truth. One chance."

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : ask your questions. Jedi_Knight_Tathra she moves down to the floor sitting

crosslegged.. her head is erect and she shows a themoment the outward apearance of calm

Jedi_Master_Sage unfolds his arms revealing his concealedsaber, which he ignites, the blade pointed at Tathra "youwill tell me everything you have done in the past week,who you have spoken to and where you have been"

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I left the planet set up a wonderfulwedding for my friend Jay and my sister kym there withthe asonians I preformed the cerimoney .. I then returnedto look after their hotel while they were gone. I arranged


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with the felinot elders a spot for the> Jedi_Knight_Tathra : padawans to retreat to when if this

situation with the republic boiles to a point where theyare not safe here.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but I do not think this is what you areafter .. I met up with a very distressed Boto. and Here Imade a major mistake.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra :Trying to help him I taped into the darkwith out realising it. the effect was that Boto attacked meI realised as soon as it happened that I was out of mydebth so I contacted Master Talera who boto knew totake over I knew I was calusing damage so >

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : when talera arrived I left him in herhands and walked away I went into meditation and

realised that there was more to this than one slip Jedi_Knight_Tathra : It scared me enough to make me

realise that if I didnt get control of my emotions I was atrisk of falling to the darkside again ... I contacted botothe next day appologising for my actions and informinghim that although I still considered him a friend

Jedi_Master_Sage scowls "why should I believe you?" Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I would not attempt to meet with him

or come close to him untill he was ready to talk to me

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : look into my mind Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I have been worrying so much about

fitting in about doing the right thing I lost my way.thinking I knew better when I was just fooling myself.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : my expectations of the council werefar more thatn what I found myself finding and I wantedto make it to the picture that I imagined it should be.Getting upset when things did not go my way .. I believeI was not ready for the council

Jedi_Master_Sage slowly moves the blade away, sensingno deception "what possessed you to do such a thing? Toviolate a sentient's mind?"

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that the council was right to removeme

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I thought if he bottled up the hate inhim that it would fester and he would end up


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exploding ... I thought if he could release that hateconfront he would see that he could cope with it. so Igave him the illusion of the one he wanted to kill so he >

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : could confront that person. Having him

attack that illusion was not what I had thought of .. Ithought he would just yell and get out the anger with outresorting to violence as soon as I realised he didnt see itas an illusion I stopped. it was then I>

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I called Talera. as soon as I realisedwhat I had done

Jedi_Master_Sage : When you wish to combat darkness,one brings forth a torch, a light. the stronger the better. Onedoes not make more darkness.

Jedi_Master_Sage : It is the same with anger. You should

have given him reason to find and focus on peace, toovercome his anger, not give in to it.

Jedi_Master_Sage : He resisted the darkside in spite of yourefforts, not because of them.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I realise this now .. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : i have so much more to learn and I

must atone for my error Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I plan to go into selcusion off planet

maybe asos or dagobar. to meditate and atone.

findmyself and push the dark away again . Jedi_Master_Sage deactivates the blade, attaching thesaber to his belt

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master I cannot let the dark take holdagain . so I must go for as long as it takes.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Push it away? No, you must do betterthan that. One does not find a bomb in their house andsimply sweep it under the carpet, they must defuse it, get ridof it.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will Master that is my goal . Jedi_Knight_Tathra : to rid the dark from me Jedi_Knight_Tathra : to learn humility and tolorance . Jedi_Master_Sage : Where does this darkness stem from? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : to find my center Jedi_Knight_Tathra : my need to fit in Jedi_Knight_Tathra : My need to belong.


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra : my perfectionist attitude I am not thebest at every thing I should realise that I will makemistakes and I should learn from them not let myself bedefeated by them

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will never be the perfict jedi norshould I expect every one else to be that too Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I judge others I must learn not to look

outwardsly but concentrate on the light with in Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Is there anythign I missed Master Jedi_Master_Sage :Your fear. You fear a number of things,

that you may never fit in, or be accepted. Jedi_Master_Sage : But most of all, that you may never

atone for your past. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are right . Master I think the

reason I tried so hard with boto was that i associatedwith his attacker and felt if he should punish any one itshould be me

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : his attacker tortured him.. and Itortured many too

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I failed Master due to that fear Jedi_Master_Sage : But fear is something people cling to as

it absolves the bearer of responsibility. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : How do I fight it Master how do I

remove that fear from me? Jedi_Master_Sage : By teaching yourself to accept the

consequences of all of your actions, to acknowledge whatlies beyond and to deal with whatever comes, is to pushpast the boundary of fear

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I had it that center before goign on thecouncil but once there the fears returned

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I felt distrust from many of thecouncilors and that caused fear in me

Jedi_Master_Sage : distrust or dislike? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Distrust Jedi_Master_Sage : Sometimes a simple disagreement can

be percieved as distrust. You must shed yourself of all suchnotions. To look past your perceptions and instead attain anunderstanding of how others percieve

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : can I ask a question Master


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Jedi_Master_Sage :You may. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : In the past identifying distrust was

needed for a safety system I could smell fear or distrustfrom anyone I was very attuned to body language and

signs of that distrust manifesting. I felt that mistrustfrom Two of the council members I saught to meet Jedi_Knight_Tathra : with one of them and was met with

only denials or accusations. she would not meet with meshe was more eager to meet with a darksider than tomeet with me. Please explain why I should not considerthat as distrust.

Jedi_Master_Sage :You presume too much, you always did.You mis-judge and misinterpret actions and forget that youare no longer a queen surrounded by fearful servants, but

jedi who do not speak to you as a servant would. Jedi_Master_Sage : If one tells you that they do not see you

as an ideal specialist in combat, you think they have toldyou that you cannot fight. We know you have skill, but thereis a difference between one who has skill and one who isdevoted to the honing of that skill

Jedi_Master_Sage : and little else. Jedi_Master_Sage : If someone forgets an event, you see it

as denial. Or perhaps they simply did not see a situation as

you did. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master why did the council accept herexagerations and her attacks on me that wereunfounded. she accused me of things that I did not dowhy do you not see that as fear

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : How can they not see the fear she hadof me and the distrust she had .. she even called for myremoval when I tried to talk to her about that fear

Jedi_Master_Sage : Enough! I am tired of your inability tolet go of the past, your whinings of what ammounts toschool yard like quarreling. You are the one whoexaggerates and views the world through some perverselense, where everyone but you is wrong>>

Jedi_Master_Sage : >> I could explain and explain everysingle detail and yet, you will never understand until youlook to your own faults and heal them first >>


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra :Trust me sage she does more help tothe darkside by being in the council than I could ever do.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will look at my faults.. but even adarksider can see one who who is lead by fear

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and craves ownership of the council Jedi_Master_Sage : >> You see fear everywhere, in anythingthat seems only mildly contentious, in anyone who does notutterly embrace you as a sister. I suspect you now see me asone who has been "seduced by her lies". You are above thisTathra.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Ivory does not violate minds and inciteanger.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and you protect her too much .. for..you over look

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she insited anger in me Jedi_Knight_Tathra : her actions were detramental to my

continued light Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she and her actions made me angry ..

yes I could fall but you put soem one like that with atroubled padawan and they will turn to the darkside

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I might not be the right person to betelling you this. as she and I have history .. but it needsto be said.. Halak and ellaine would not be in the light

had I not repared the damage that ivory did. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I do not expect you to do anythign putprotect her .. but for the sake of others .. watch her too.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I know this does not make you happyto hear this. but .. there is no ignorance there isknowledge.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and ask halak and elainne if I speekthe truth.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra she bows her head.. she had not wishedto do this but again she needs to meditate and attone..

Jedi_Master_Sage :You arrogant woman... You claim creditfor the decisions made by others. You say Ivory diddamage.. that you repaired.. but tell me, which doctor isgreater? One who cuts open the body to perform surgery orthe one who closes the body afterward?

Jedi_Master_Sage : Are you so naive that you cannot see


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that sometimes a wound must be opened so another canreach in past the skin to heal what is inside?

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and who is more important the onewho reveals the desease .. within the plant ... instead of

letting it fester and grow which the dark would like. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : your arragoance and your belief thatyou are always right is a danger to you too Master Sage.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you too need to open your mind andnot keep it closed to posiblities

Jedi_Master_Sage :You are the one with arrogance. Evennow, you refuse to accept that you are wrong. Neither ismore important, both are needed. Neither should claimcredit for what is not their own victory but a united effort.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master sage I will not argue with you

but. I will say this. while you keep your mind closeddarkness will fill your heart and those you think are yourallies will turn on you. Ivory turned on you when yousupported me. and you ignored that. she blatently>

Jedi_Master_Sage :Your mind is the one that is closedhere.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : as is yours. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you think you are the perfict jedi .. but

your pride is your danger

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : pride that now makes you blind toposiblities that you will not consider Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I thoguht that ivory was going into

danger by going near the chancellor.. I spuspectedsomething was wrong..

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : ivory is one of the weakest jedi in thecouncil

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : thats hwy he chose her. and now youcan see that he felt he would use her..

Jedi_Master_Sage : Ivory is not the one who has lived inparanoia and lost her mind to the point that she has violatedanother mind. And you are wrong>

Jedi_Master_Sage : Ivory was chosen because no other jediwould accept such a mission as we do not have politicalexpertise. You were right that it was a danger, but being a

jedi is inherently dangerous. One does not always get to


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pick and choose if they will face danger > Jedi_Master_Sage : or not Jedi_Master_Sage : Of course it was a risk, few things are. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : he reeks with darkness now

Jedi_Master_Sage : And you don't? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : probably why I am having so muchtrouble resisiting it

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I am still light.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : see my heart.. I fight it every minuit

but it has not over taken me yet Jedi_Master_Sage : A dying candle can be considered a

light. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but from even the smallest spart a fire

can grow filling the world with light

Jedi_Master_Sage : Or it can die.. you must decide if youwill be the spark that dies or that starts a fire.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I am going to kindle it with meditationand atonement. I am removing it from the wind of thedark that invades this planet. I cannot fight the darkwhile I fight it in myself. Though I feal I am betraying allby leaving I am no help to anyone in the state

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I am at the moment Jedi_Master_Sage : It is that acceptance that will strengthen

you. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master THe meeting with the jedi

council at the moment is only going to cause moreproblems. May I be excused from it to go into retreat andwork on that which I have discovered I have with in me

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I could face them but I have pent upanger in me that is better to be removed before facingthem

Jedi_Master_Sage : I cannot make such a call, but I can tellthem of your.. decision. The meeting can wait for yourreturn. I'm sure they will understand.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I hope so .. I would rather die than tofall to the dark again ..

Jedi_Master_Sage : I apologise for the precautions before, Ididn't know what had happened. Do forgive me.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I understood


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra : may I have them back as I will needthem as I travel

Jedi_Master_Sage opens the crate "You understand thatyou'll be essentially alone on Dagobah"

Jedi_Knight_Tathra :Yes. I do Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it is one of my fears .. lonelyness Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I must learn to not need others Jedi_Master_Sage :You have a hard trip before you Tathra. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that I know. Jedi_Master_Sage : Do one thing. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master Pray to the stars for me. and

those in the force ... Jedi_Knight_Tathra : what would you like me to do Master? Jedi_Master_Sage : I don't believe in prayer but I will hope

for your safe return. Don't take your own ship. Instead, takea transport. Let them drop you off there. When the forcewills, someone will come for you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Will you see to it my sister gets theship

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and makes sure that the dropincenterstaff are paid

Jedi_Knight_Tathra she hands him a documnt giving himpower of atturny to pay their wages

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : this gives you access to my funds Jedi_Master_Sage : I'll make sure some of it is saved for if

you return. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you have access to the intrest. there

is more and enough there to pay the saleries Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I got alot of money for being a queen ..

the dropin center uses that money even If I dont use itmyself

Jedi_Master_Sage : Alright. Jedi_Knight_Tathra she looks now quietly at sage. wanting

so desprately to get a hug from him .. he is the one shetrusts.. leaving is hard for her.. and she will do as hesays...

Jedi_Master_Sage :You gave us such trouble Tathra, I hadto tell Bernie that we had to hide our... friendship in case youtargeted her.


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Jedi_Master_Sage : I was so concerned for you. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I have . not killed any one .. I would

not have hurt any one knowingly Jedi_Master_Sage "I know, learn from this" he moves to

Tathra and places his arms around her Jedi_Master_Sage : Be careful. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Sage. I will.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : sage watch over Ivory please. she may

need your help one day when she gets in water aboveher head. she is very brash and walks in without thinking.. all are dangerous when the dark is active. I did notrealise until what happened with boto that I was >

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : falling again. she may not see thesigns like I did not see the signs. be there for her as you

did for me I wish no harm on her. only the light. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I may be very wrong. but what if I am

right. look after her. Jedi_Master_Sage : Tathra, sometimes you can't make up

for some errors. You can't make amends and you can'talways justify a mistake. You can only accept whatshappened and move on. You achieve nothing by shifting thefocus to another. by highlighting faults you see when >

Jedi_Master_Sage : you should look to their strengths.

Have you learned nothing from the illusion you used? angeronly breeds more anger, but peace can over come it.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : what about care.. Jedi_Master_Sage : If you look always to Ivory's faults, you

overlook her talents and achievements Jedi_Master_Sage : By focusing on her positive aspects,

you can help her strengthen them and she can overcome herown faults which she does by herself anyway.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she cannot see her faults. and thatarrogance is leading her into danger

Jedi_Master_Sage :Your arrogance is the reason you can'tsee her strengths. And she does see some of her faults.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she has strenghts.. but your blindnessto the weaknesses and your ignoring it ... has caused mealmost to go to the dark... had I not been stronger hertreatment of me would have been very dangerous to the


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jedi .. Jedi_Master_Sage :You forget, that it was by focusing on

the good in you, not the faults, that I was able to help yousee the light which you then chose.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : believe me had she not treated me theway she did with lies and inuendos.. I would not havebecome as paranoid as I did

Jedi_Master_Sage :You cannot blame others for your ownfaults!

Jedi_Master_Sage :You alone are responsible for how youdeal with all that is around you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you ignore things that you do not wishto cope with.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she is responsible for how she treats

others. if it causes people to fall.. then there issomethign wrong

Jedi_Master_Sage : No, I see what is there, I simply chooseto focus on things that will help overcome the flaws, not onthe flaws themselves.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : why are you so instistant to protecther...

Jedi_Master_Sage : People fall because they choose to doso.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Because Ivory is a jedi who tests theresolve of those she meets, all jedi must be tested.

Jedi_Master_Sage : With Ivory, she ensures the test doesnot result in them dying.

Jedi_Master_Sage :You were tested and passed. Now youmust face another test.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra :There is no ignorance Master Sage ..there is knowledge. ... and you are wrong there sage

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : ivorys actions led to padies falling ..and dieing in the dark

Jedi_Master_Sage : People fall because they choose to doso.

Jedi_Master_Sage : If a jedi falls simply because of the wayone talks to them, they will not survive in the real world as a

jedi. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : so you condone a jedi who actions are


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causing the weaker to fall .. she is acting like she andonly she is good enough to be a jedi and anyone whocant cope with her deserves to fail

Jedi_Master_Sage : People fall because they choose to do

so. Jedi_Master_Sage : And that is both a false anddisrespectful accusation.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : ivory is of more use to the darksiderswith in the council cause she aids the dark with heractions

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : believe it or not.. you need to watchher..

Jedi_Master_Sage : Tathra.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she was my greatest allie when I was

dark Jedi_Master_Sage : Are you trying to turn me to the

darkside with this foolishness? Jedi_Master_Sage : Listen to yourself rant in this insanity. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : no... it is your own aragance ... Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you inablilty to listen Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you denial that what I say could be

possible Jedi_Master_Sage : And again you refuse to accept the

truth, you accuse me of the thing you do, you refuse tolisten!

Jedi_Master_Sage : Because you are being a fool, "she isacting like she and only she is good enough to be a jedi"that is utter nonsense.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Master sage all you had to say wasthat you will watch and see for yourself.. YOu did notneed to defend her

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : why do you feel the need to defendher

Jedi_Master_Sage :You do not need to attack her and youare in no position to make such demands. I will say what istrue and if you are wise at all, you will listen and cease thisarguing.

Jedi_Master_Sage :You say Ivory is of more use to thedarksiders when it was you who used a technique of the


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darkside Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I am not argueing but asking a

request. it is you that is argeing against looking into it.what are you afraid you will find if you look into it

Jedi_Master_Sage :You blame Ivory for the falls of otherswhen it is you, not Ivory who frustrates me now. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Ivory is a manipulator.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she uses politics as a tool Jedi_Master_Sage : Remember when you demanded I bow

before you and to kiss you on the lips? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she presents one side to the jedi and

another side to others. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are blinded by her manipulations. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and if you a master cannot see that ..

the jedi are truely in a sorry state Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I remember that even then you would

not humble yourself .. Jedi_Master_Sage : I watch over all of my friends, Ivory is

no different. But I will not have you leave here believing youmanaged to suceed in your attempt to manipulate thesituation, to justify your own fears.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that still then you were arrogant Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she fears me..

Jedi_Master_Sage : Only in your mind. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she fears anythign enosian Jedi_Master_Sage : Only in your mind. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I have seen it Jedi_Master_Sage : Only in your mind. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : so did zio Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and dee Jedi_Master_Sage : Really? Thats strange because Desaray

actually said the opposite, that you are the one with fear. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : i have seen her kick a felinot to get it

away Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I know how to sence fear Master sage.. Jedi_Master_Sage : I don't think you do Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she does not trust me at all Jedi_Master_Sage : I think you are so full of your own fear

and arrogance that you barely sense anything at all.


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Jedi_Master_Sage : Do you remember that night? Jedi_Master_Sage : The feeling you felt when you found

you could not make me bow? Jedi_Master_Sage : How you hoped I could be made to do

as you say? Jedi_Master_Sage : Are you really so far from that feelingnow? Turn away from it.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it seems ot me that you are morearrogant. even here you will not give an inch .. only sithdeal in absolutes .. why are you acting like a sith

Jedi_Master_Sage :You are lost if you think that. And youhave not answered my question.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I have lost the need to see you bow..there is no argueing with arrogance ... I am awair of my

faults.. do not hide behind the fascade of falts you willnot even acknowledge.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : may I have my weapons so I mayleave ...

Jedi_Master_Sage : When you acknowledge the truth that Ihave laid before you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : arrogance from you.. fear from ivory ..nowonder the sith have got the power to make the jedithe enemy

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the council is in discord Jedi_Master_Sage : The council has no discord at all. Jedi_Master_Sage : In fact its been in greater unity in recent

times than it has ever known, Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and If I have to leave with out my

weapons I will. I will not pander to your arrogance askyourself why you always need to be right.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it is an illusion.Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the dark sees the discordJedi_Knight_Tathra : that is why it has struck now

Jedi_Master_Sage : Tathra, you are the one sowing discordwith your accusations.

Jedi_Master_Sage :You would have me echo your errors. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are blind to the truth. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : pride leads to a fall sage becarefull

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Jedi_Master_Sage : Don't you see, that the darkside iscalling you and you do not see it? You are giving in to itslies!

Jedi_Master_Sage :You would have me see Ivory as a

threat instead of an ally, that is the definition of discord andyou are sowing it. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : if I was giving into its lies I would be

acting liek you do .. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you know she is weak .. you just wont

admit it Jedi_Knight_Tathra : for to admit it you would need to

admit you missed it Jedi_Master_Sage : Everyone is weak Tathra, is how we

deal with our weaknesses that defines our strength.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : thus revealing you yourself are flawed Jedi_Knight_Tathra : my weapons please. I will not fight you

but I do need to go if I am to catch the next transport. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : please. before I do give into the

darkside and take them myself Jedi_Master_Sage : This is not the arguement you are going

to win. And if you are prepared to make such a threat, thenthat alone speaks volumes.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Listen to yourself and see what you are

doing, what you are prepared to do to prove somenonsense, when you should accept the things you havemissed.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will agree to dissagree on that .. I seethings diffrently probably because our pasts are diffrent. Isee clearly what I fight so much in myself. when Irecognise it in others I know it cause I know it myself.

YOu are my friend and I think you are a Jedi_Knight_Tathra : wise person. but you do not like to

admit you might possibly be wrong. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and that is arrogance. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : take it from one who knows cause she

herself is arrogant Jedi_Knight_Tathra :You have said that ivory has

weaknesses ... but you will not call her on them Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you call me on mine but not her's


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra : why do you pick and choose who youwill show your rightness to

Jedi_Master_Sage : Wrong about what Tathra? That Ivorymight be evil? I accept any possibility when there is

evidence. And I do not call someone on a fault when they arealready dealing with it. There have been times when I'vepointed out to her, her own immaturity, but>

Jedi_Master_Sage : > when she recognised and acceptedthat she had a problem to deal with, I stepped back andfocused on her strengths instead, so she can use them toovercome her weaknesses

Jedi_Master_Sage : I would do the same for you, if youwould just make the same choice.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : well thats where you and I differ

because I have not yet seen her admit she has a problemwith me because she avoide meeting with me so we canwork though the issues. I see that as distrust and fear. Ican only hope when I return she will have overcome

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : those fears Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I hope she was not just giving you

lipservice Jedi_Knight_Tathra : giving you what you wanted to hear so

that you were happy

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will not do that .. so you do not likethat. Jedi_Master_Sage : she's admitted it in council meetings

more than once, just because you don't see it doesn't meanit doesn't happen

Jedi_Master_Sage : By focusing on her, you draw awayfrom your own concerns.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : notice I spoke only of myself when Iarrived

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it was not untill things were clearbetween us that I gave you the warning

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it was not an effort as destraction butone of genuine concern

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : for the jedi .. Jedi_Master_Sage : It may not have been intended as a

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meant it or not. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : for my peace of mind will you watch

out for her. for the chancellor will use her if he can getinto her mind .

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : she is very strong .. but he is strongtoo Jedi_Master_Sage : She no longer works for the chancellor

or has anything to do with him, the need to watch out for herin that regard is no more.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : he will attempt to youse her friendshipwith sil..

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : its what I would have done Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and you be careful Jedi_Master_Sage : Actually thats what Vaulkamier would

do and he's tried. In the end he failed. Jedi_Master_Sage : I'm always careful. Jedi_Master_Sage : Watch out for yourself, on Dagobah, no

one else will. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but he got close ivory has to many

friends with former darksiders. she clings to thosefriendships. relying on their council. I do not think

justin ... is truely light Jedi_Knight_Tathra : sage .. come for me when the force

calls you to come Jedi_Master_Sage : He isn't dark either, I've seen inside hismind.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : tht is not what he told me Jedi_Master_Sage : Well that is what I found, past his

barriers and no, it was not what he wanted me to see. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : he is very loyal to his friends .. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : he is also honorable which are both

good qualities Jedi_Master_Sage : and the sith know no loyalty but to

themselves and those they deem useful. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and he loves tathra Jedi_Knight_Tathra : taleara Jedi_Knight_Tathra : lol Jedi_Knight_Tathra : ) Jedi_Master_Sage : Ivory is also loyal to her friends.


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Jedi_Master_Sage : That alone should tell you, she is not asith.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I am loyal to you my friend Jedi_Master_Sage : Tathra, l dont think you should leave

until you accept that focusing on the faults of others willonly distract you from your own faults.. and your ownstrengths.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but I must go now.. and clenze myself..of this dark

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the dark will not let me do that at themoment Master ..

Jedi_Master_Sage : First, accept what I have said, then I willhave peace of mind, knowing you are safe.

Jedi_Master_Sage :You can do whatever you choose to do.

Jedi_Master_Sage : The force will not call me to one whocannot accept that truth.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I know what you say is right.. but thedark is deceptive... and altough I would like to do whatyou want.. I cannot at the moment to do so would be adeception and I am not prepared to lie to you to makeyou happy .

Jedi_Master_Sage : To accept something as true is not a lie. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I could tell you what you want me to

say but it would be a lie Jedi_Master_Sage : To accept something as true is not a lie. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I do not think at the moment what you

say is true Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the dark is there I am fighitng it.. but

at the moment what I just said was the truth from mypoint of view

Jedi_Master_Sage :You must, you need something toshield yourself from the darkside on Dagobah, let it be thetruth that defends you.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Then your point of view must changeso it can stand against the darkside as I have.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra :The truth is the light is with you and itis a spark in me.. that all things are with in the force..but ask yourself this .. why do you force your views onme and insist it is the only way to light.


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra : do not force me to do what I cannot donow.. for that is a dark act inits self

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I must discover the truth for myself. Jedi_Master_Sage : Because your view has lead you away

from the light. you are not completely from it, but you arenot as close as you should be, Jedi_Knight_Tathra : i cannot just follow blindly Jedi_Master_Sage :Yes you can, your eyes can decieve

you, the truth does not. Jedi_Master_Sage : Call it.. faith. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : no what you say is against the code Jedi_Knight_Tathra : there is no ignorance there is

knowledge Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I must find that knowledge for my self

Jedi_Master_Sage : in accepting truth, you attainknowledge.

Jedi_Master_Sage : To say that is pride, leave your pride onNaboo as you leave, don't carry it with you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but accepting the truth with outdiscovering it yourself is living in ignorance

Jedi_Master_Sage : No, it is called accepting guidence. Jedi_Master_Sage : And that is not against the code. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : a jedi does not force their views on

other but help them explore for themself the truth Jedi_Master_Sage :You cannot explore what you do not

accept to be true. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are forcing me to do what you

wish and that is against the code Jedi_Master_Sage : I am asking you to. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I must find my own truth Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are focing me Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you are forcing me to think only as you

do Jedi_Master_Sage : Truth is not something you can make, it

is something defined. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : but are you so positive that you know

the truth .. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : or is that arrogance speeking Jedi_Master_Sage : No, I am asking that you look at things


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from the view of a jedi who has not touched darkness as youhave been

Jedi_Master_Sage : I know the truth of the jedi way, it is notarrogance, it is experience

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and I am asking you to see it from onewho knows the dark you have never touched that youare very close to it yourself

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I must find my own way ... Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you cannot dictate to me the way I

must think Jedi_Master_Sage :You a jedi, the jedi have one way. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : only sith deal in absolutes Jedi_Knight_Tathra : with a jedi there is knowledge Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and a certain point of view

Jedi_Master_Sage : But the jedi have one code, onephilosophy.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I know the code sage. now I mustexplore its meaning so that I know what it means. to me.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : it cannot be handed to me on a platter. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : let me learn it for myself .. and If I fall

it will not be your responiblity but my own Jedi_Master_Sage : but isn't about the code, its about you

making a choice to not focus on the faults of others.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : Sage.. you are focusing on my faults ..instead of letting me go Jedi_Knight_Tathra : let me go so the healing can start Jedi_Master_Sage : If you can choose to look at the

strengths of others so they can be nutured, so they canovercome their own faults, that in itself is a strength and it iswhat I have been focusing on.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : My weapons please. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : then believe that I have strenght

enough to fight it with out saying you are right before Igo

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : nurture me.. by letting me go Jedi_Master_Sage :You are not strong enough to survive

without this one truth, let yourself draw from this truth, thenyou I can let you stand alone with peace of mind.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the truth is .. the light is with me.. it


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calls for me to go into secusion. to mediate and atone. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : untill I can cleanse myself I cannot see

the truth as you see it.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : please let me go .. give me my

weapons and let me leave as a friend Jedi_Master_Sage : the truth is also, that focusing on thefaults of others does not help anyone, but to focus on theirstrengths helps them and you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you doubt that I can do it Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that is why you fear to let me go Jedi_Knight_Tathra : well you have got to trust me Jedi_Master_Sage : Please take this one truth and I can let

you leave as a sister. You would want me to give you thesame peace of mind.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I have to do this myself .. Jedi_Master_Sage :You need to trust me and let me help

you. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and you need to give me room to heal

before asking for me to say that you are right. cause Icannot at the moment while my head is not fully clear..

You are my special friend my brother the closest personto me in all the world.. believe me when I say >

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : this I would do as you wish but it

would be a lie.. Jedi_Master_Sage : Only if you see it that way. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : let me not leave you lieing Jedi_Knight_Tathra : truth at the moment is that I dont

know the full truth .. Jedi_Master_Sage : I am giving you a part, and that is a

good place to start Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I do not see yours as the full truth Jedi_Knight_Tathra : and I know that I dont know the truth Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I need to learn it myself .. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : please. trust me Jedi_Master_Sage : this is truth, a simple piece that you

need before you go, the rest I trust you to find yourself:focusing on the faults of others does not help anyone, but tofocus on their strengths helps them and you.

Jedi_Master_Sage : Take that alone and test it when you are


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away Jedi_Knight_Tathra : all have strenghts.. and focusing on

them is a better way to live Jedi_Master_Sage : the rest I trust you to find yourself.

Jedi_Master_Sage : And with others? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that is all I can give you at themoment

Jedi_Master_Sage : What happens when you focus onfaults?

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : dont ask me to name names Jedi_Master_Sage : I didn't mean it like that. Jedi_Master_Sage : What happens when you focus on

faults? Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I .. loose sight on my own faults

Jedi_Master_Sage : And?Jedi_Knight_Tathra : that can lead to arragance and the

darkside Jedi_Master_Sage : Thats close enough! Jedi_Master_Sage opens the crate "There you go" Jedi_Knight_Tathra takes her things replacing them ... Jedi_Knight_Tathra : can I give you a hug and kiss good bye Jedi_Master_Sage : A hug is fine but Bernie might issues

with a kiss

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : on the cheek Jedi_Knight_Tathra : like you did with me Jedi_Knight_Tathra she hold him tight and gives him a

small sisterly kiss on the cheek.. Jedi_Master_Sage : I suppose thats alright. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : hey if bernie ever goes .. you know I

would jump at a chance to jump on you.. Jedi_Knight_Tathra she grins... Jedi_Knight_Tathra wonders if sage's species blush Jedi_Master_Sage : Give my regards to the cave where

spirits sometimes dwell. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : I will .. Jedi_Master_Sage : May the force be with you. Jedi_Knight_Tathra : you will come for me when the light

calls you to collect me? Jedi_Master_Sage : If I am the one it calls, of course.


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Jedi_Knight_Tathra : tell val thank you for your council andthat I will be doing as he says. for a while.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra : the force be with you sage Jedi_Master_Sage : And with you.

Jedi_Knight_Tathra she leaves with a bow and gets thegungans to get her to the space port .. where she getson a transport .. and heads off to dagobah

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