Secret Love
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Transcript of Secret Love
Secret Love
Sheila Xu
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Content
Author……………………………….01
Introduction…………………………03
Chapter one………………………….04
Chapter two………………………….04
Chapter three………………………..06
Chapter four…………………………09
Chapter five………………………….12
Chapter six…………………………..15
About the author
I, Sheila Xu, am the author of this
book. I was born in Kaoshiung, Taiwan,
on October 16,1987. After coming to the
world, I didn’t live with my parents. My
mom took me to my elder aunt’s home
where I stayed till I was almost one year
old. During this one year, I seemed to
have two mothers. Both of them took
good care of me. I am very thankful even
now. After that, Mom and I returned to
Gangshan and lived with Dad. From that
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time on, I met two people who are the
most important ones to me in my life. I
call them Grandpa and Aunt. In fact, we
don’t have a blood relationship. However,
we are much closer than the ones who do
have a blood relationship.
Now, I’m nineteen-year-old student
who doesn’t really know what to do in the
future. I’m trying to find my way now.
Hope you guys enjoy my story.
Wish you the best
Sheila Xu 2007/1/8
Introduction of the Story
I think some people will think Secret
Love sounds like a soap opera. But, don’t
you think life is just like a drama and
drama is just like life? Maybe you won’t
believe it, but the story which I wrote is a
true story. Of course the characters’ names
have been changed because I have to
protect and keep their secrets.
I want to show you when people love
someone, they won’t care whether the
others have the same sex or not. Because
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of common customs, people always seem
to only love the opposite sex. It is
forbidden to fall in love with a person of
the same sex.
CHAPTER ONE
Brit started his new school life and
was ready to be a senior high school
student. He was very nervous but looking
forward to his new classmates and new
school life.
It was a brand new day today. He saw
his classmates. Every one was so different
and unique. They were not just only
different from the classmates from junior
high school but also different from each
one in class. Brit was very happy going to
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know them. He wanted to make many
friends very much because he was afraid
of loneliness. However, he was too shy to
be active making friends. Although Brit
would like to make friends with his
classmates, he still felt he must lose
something which was very important. He
felt he couldn’t get enough. He didn’t
know what he really wanted but he knew
these classmates weren’t the special kind
of people who he would like to know.
The third day of the beginning of this
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semester, he found a special person, Wat,
in class. Wat was very cool. He never
talked to others. He seemed difficult to
approach. Brit didn’t know why his eyes
were always caught by Wat and always
paid attention to him. Furthermore, he
would like to make friends with Wat.
This was the first time Brit won
attraction to someone. He didn’t know
why and didn’t want to think about these
emotions. What he knew was there was a
strange feeling that he had never had
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before emerging.
CHAPTER TWO
Time went by, it was the middle of the
semester. Brit had never talked to Wat
even once. He was too shy and Wat’s
coolness was unapproachable. Brit knew
that if he wanted to be friends with Wat,
he must catch a chance. Although he knew
what he should do, he still kept doing
nothing.
In Brit and Wat’s class, they changed
their seats every two weeks. The way to
decide who would sit together was
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drawing lots. Brit thought he had no
courage to talk with Wat, so he hoped to
know more about Wat by sitting together
for two weeks. Every time when the class
leader drew lots, Brit always prayed to
God to let them to sit together. However,
God seemed to never hear his wishes.
CHAPTER THREE
At the end of the first semester,
Christmas was coming, Brit finally sat
together with Wat. He was very, very, very
happy but very, very, very nervous seeing
the seats chart on the blackboard. He
thought that was a Christmas present from
God. It was an amazing grace for him. So
unbelievable! He couldn’t believe it was
the truth! The night before the day which
his class changed seats, Brit was not able
to fall asleep.
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The first three days, Brit didn’t talk to
Wat, and he didn’t even look at Wat’s face.
They sat together but were like two
strangers. Their first interaction was a
“conversation” from the text book.
One cold Tuesday afternoon, they
were taking an English grammar class.
The teacher asked the whole class to
practice the conversation that they just
finished with their partners. Brit was
startled at this requirement. His heart beat
was all but out of his chest. He turned his
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head gradually and saw Wat with vagrant
eyes. “Who will start this conversation
first?”, Wat asked. Suddenly, the time
seemed to stop. Brit felt like he almost
couldn’t breathe. He did a few deep breath
and said” Alright, I will go first.” These
were their first talking.
CHAPTER FOUR
During this period of time, Brit was
really happy. He was lost in himself with
happiness. Every night, he expected the
next day to come fast. Every morning, he
expected to go to school hurry. These
expectations pushed him up because he
had a purpose for living. Their
relationship was much better than what
Brit thought. Wat started to talk to Brit
and smiled at him. One day, Wat asked
Brit for help. Brit was very surprised. He
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thought Wat trusted him so he was also a
little happy. These changes made Brit feel
although he was special to Wat. They were
closer to each other.
Day after day, Brit discovered that he
had a different feeling through Wat. He
couldn’t take his eyes away from Wat. He
couldn’t stop thinking of him. He didn’t
like to see Wat be good with somebody
else. He didn’t want to see Wat together
with somebody else. He became envious
very easily and very often. He knew it
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wasn’t normal for a MALE to care about
someone who was MALE, too.
Brit finally understood it was love.
This love was a forbidden love. It is not
acceptable by society. However, he still
couldn’t control himself. Due to this thrill,
shock, suspense love, Brit was almost
getting mad. He just couldn’t stop loving
Wat.
CHAPTER FIVE
Happy days always pass so quickly,
and these two weeks were over. It was
time for Brit and Wat to separate. Brit was
depressed because he didn’t want to
change seats. He was afraid that Wat and
he would be strangers again. After they
changed seats, his eyes were still caught
by Wat. He always paid a lot of attention
on what Wat did, what Wat said, where
Wat went, who Wat talked to, and
everything about Wat. It seemed as if he
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was going mad. Now, he was very sure
that Wat must be special to him.
One day in P.E. class, they had a
funny activity. The teacher’s first directive
was to ask them to hold hands with the
one beside themselves. Brit and Wat they
stood together but when everyone started
to hold each others’ hands, Wat avoided
Brit and shied at once.
Brit saw Wat’s avoidance very clearly.
He was harmed absolutely and completely.
He thought if he behaved too obviously
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Wat wouldn’t discover that he loved him.
Because he didn’t want Wat to hate him,
he decided to stay away from him so that
he would control his love for Wat.
CHAPTER SIX
The last summer of Brit’s senior high
school, the season of graduation was
coming. Classmates were discussing their
future, their universities. Some were
worried about their exams. Some were in
a hurry to leave every one’s personal
information and messages for a class
book.
Brit was as same as other students. He
shared with classmates. He was busy for
the class book, too. He also worried about
something. What was he worried about? It
was Wat.
Brit received a surprising news in
April from a classmate who was with Wat
for a long time: Wat was going to emigrate
to England after graduation.
Brit lost his purpose immediately. He
suddenly didn’t know what to do next. His
heart was bleeding. His heart was crying.
His heart was shaking. His heart was
broken. He never thought that Wat would
be so far away from him. He thought even
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though they might not go to the same
university after graduating, he still could
see Wat in the same city and the same
country. However, Wat was now gone.
Brit couldn’t accept this truth.
So, the rest of the last semester, Brit
cherished everyday Wat was in school
very much. He didn’t waste anytime they
hit it off together.
Brit regretted that he hadn’t been
good friends with Wat. He regretted
wasting so much time that they were being
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together. He should not be so shy. He
should not be so passive. He hated his fool.
He regretted always avoiding seeing Wat.
He hated himself for not being true to his
heart. So many regrets would not change
anything. So many regrets would not turn
the clock back to yesterday. Everything
happened past. It was too late.
At graduation, Brit left earlier than
other classmates. He refused all dates
because he wanted to be alone and in a
silence place thinking something about
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Wat.
Now, Wat was really gone. His heart
was gone with him, too. The weather was
sunny, but his heart was cloudy. The
weather was hot, but his heart was cold. It
was crowed outside, but his heart was
empty. Here was a summer breeze kissing
his face but there was a storm destroying
his heart. As his eyes were covered by the
hair which was blowing by the wind, tears
were falling down to the ground. Nothing
would comfort him.
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A few minutes later, he dried his tears
and stared at the sky. He recalled
everything that belonged to Wat and him.
Those memories were full of happiness
and sadness. There were so many
differences after Wat left for England.
Happiness was still happiness, but sadness
becomes happiness now. Furthermore,
Brit and Wat were really strangers now.